DISTRACTED... AND LOVING EVERY MOMENT OF IT
A shift occurred recently in my life. I never dreamed it could happen to me again, but it did. A new man came into my life and I have been overwhelmed and distracted.
As is usual in my out-of-the-ordinary life, the circumstances which led to our meeting appear to be cosmically orchestrated. In comparing notes, Doug and I have discovered synchronicities and strange occurrences that suggest that the two of us were brought together by forces beyond explanation. Let me explain...
In early October I happened to see my neighbor in the bank. She was excited and told me she had just sold her house across from me. I knew the house had been for sale since before I moved in last May. She then started telling me about the single retired man who had purchased the house, and I strangely began feeling prickles throughout my body.
I found myself looking forward to the time he would move in. It seemed to be an eternity. Finally, just before Thanksgiving he arrived. Of course I was busy with work and the incorporation of Southwest Light, a new learning center in Pagosa Springs that has come into being. But I was already starting to lose my concentration... drawn to the window to see if I could catch a glimpse of him... then chiding myself for being so ridiculous.
On Wednesday, Nov. 23 the opportunity presented itself. I had taken the dog on our usual afternoon walk to the mailboxes, about half a mile away, and Doug drove up and parked with his big green truck. I stopped and waited. He got out. We slowly began walking toward each other... after introductions, we stood and talked for several minutes.
Friday we met again at the mailboxes... a longer conversation, followed by my invitation for him to join us for our belated Thanksgiving dinner. He was busy unpacking, however, but finally did accept my offer of leftovers Sunday night, when it would be just the two of us and we could get to know one another.
I suppose I was thrown for a loop because this was coming evident that Fate was once again at play. His pull to move to Pagosa Springs surprised his friends and family. The rare chance at actually getting one of the street mailboxes had happened to both of us... and the similarities and parallels of our lives... our interests... but mostly there was a major spark between us waiting to be ignited.
So I have been distracted... so full of energy and joy that I have little interest in food, have been finding less time for sleep, and neglecting my work BIG TIME. I can't say I'm sorry either, because I'm not. It's been the most wonderful time in my life, and that's a hard thing to admit from one who wrote a whole book on finding her twin soul.
In the last couple of weeks I have found myself "letting go" of the past. I've packed away pictures and mementos that held me back from getting on with life. After all, what was in my life 10 or 20 years ago is gone. Newfound love now does not mean that I have relinquished memories or forgotten what I had with my twin flame. But I am still young, vibrant and full of passion and love. Somehow I know that my late husband approves and has encouraged me to move on. In so doing he, too, is free to move on to the next level.
So far my new romance has been the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I still can't believe it is happening and that he is so right for me... even more so than my twin flame with all our challenges. I believe we have more than one soul mate in life. So, for whatever reason... here I am... distracted as hell and loving every moment of it.
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